My Loneliness Story

when I was alone, laying down in my bed hopeless and diving in to the mire of unhappiness, I was all alone. Seems nothing is going to restore those happy moments I had once in my life. I heard voices inside me, saying, go, run away from this reality to the fantasy and they assured me a safer life than this.

But, my conscience is there, preventing me from the trap. Trying to explain me about the importance and necessity of my life. Still my mind is there, asking me to stop this all. You’re no legend, you’re no extraordinary person to undergo this kind of pain. You are going down soon, soon you are going to give up. Get up, collect your things, run away from the reality.

I woke up in the middle of the night, checking if someone is observing me. Oh! No, am away from my home. Came and settled for four years study. Even though week after week I visit home, am still a home sick. (of course, an adult home sick). Nothing seems going in a good way. Am I left all alone in this world of lone-doom?

Question after question shooting my brain, my limbs began to tremble, my nerves are feeling fear. Am hopeless now, the unanswered prayers are asking me to prove myself. Am alone.

I never left my Dad’s hand while crossing the road, here, am crossing the zones, his love is with me. Am not alone, am collecting all my confidence. Am not abandoned, am going to beat this feeling one day.

I defeated it, and I did. Am here writing this, now am living that life which I had dreamed. Many challenges passed, many got into the to-do list. That loneliness still struck in my life somewhere, this time am not allowing it to overtake me.